Five years from now, I was preparing
myself to get into High School, enjoying my free time with friends, going to
the pool, having fun. I was so busy worrying about how cool High School would
be. I remember I was crazy in love with Justin Bieber back then (I still love
him, though but I was actually crazy at that time); I used to write and read a
lot of fanfictions, waiting for the precious moment one of those stories would
come true. But it never happened, obviously. If you ask my young self what does
she see for my future, she would be clueless; she wouldn’t even think about the
huge changes I’ve gone through, meeting people I was fancying to. And losing
those I’ve loved so much since forever. I bet this happened to all of us; if we
see our Young innocent selves waiting for a lot of stuff to happen, that
actually never happened, they would be disappointed, sad and also angry about
it all. But I also bet, if those things that we fancied a lot never happened,
was for a solid reason that the Destiny, God, the Universe, has planned. It’s
obvious, we’ve gone through pain, happiness, excitement, tiredness but it made
us who we are. So, do you regret it all?
Five
years ago, I was starting High School, fascinated by the huge change I was
going through but still happy and anxious to know about everything. I felt
empowered, like no one could tear me down. Now, being a graduated, I feel the
same way. I’m happy and anxious about the huge change I’m going to face in a
couple weeks but, at the same time, I’m scared, I’m sad, I want to stop the
time for a while, take a breath and admire my High School years, cry a Little and
get stronger to keep moving on. And, again, I bet almost everyone feels or felt
this same way. Or maybe not. I’m being anything but dramatic, I’m not leaving
to China, to have a new life, this is just College but still, I can’t believe
the day has come! I’ve share five lovely years with my Friends, I’ve gained a
lot of experiences, memories, lessons these years and they built me the way I’m
now. And realising that I’m not going to go to the same old school I’ve always
went, I’m not going to meet the same classmates I’ve always had, I’m not going
to see my friends on a daily basis as I did, breaks my heart a little. And what
hurts most is knowing that some of my friends, included my boyfriend, are
starting College next week when I’m starting next month. We all took different
paths and it’s incredible, now we can see how different we are. My group of
friends’ careers vary from Architecture to Dental Hygienist to Humanity
Professor to Biotechnology to English Translator, we’re not all the same as we
thought at first. But that’s okay because it made us work as we did.
Being
at the end of an important period and at the beginning of a new one makes me
shiver but also makes me want to face it. I know life is a constant change and
we have to be prepared or just get used to it. We can’t leave the challenges
and run away, we can’t stop the time and repeat our favourites moments, we can’t
skip stages but we can face them, we can learn from each period in our life and
get new lessons; it would strengthen the person who we are, it would change and
sculpt us in a new way, always for the good because we have to learn how to
take the good in every stage we’re. We can do that; we can face anything we
have in front of us. We’re stronger than we think and we’re smarter, we can
take the good into the bad.
Tell
me what was your biggest change in life, or if you’re going through one
nowadays. We can exchange experiences and knowledge and get over it together!
Goodbye and see you soon!
Camila x
No comments:
Post a Comment